images from home, one months worth

A chance encounter in the space between adolescence and adulthood_ Sept. 2005

Finding the time to sit and write about all that has happened over the last few months is difficult when every waking hour is spent keeping pace with the world around me. God damn deadlines, headlines and time saving manuveurs. I'm feeling as though the second I pick up something of interest, another bill falls in my lap, another alarm rings, another phone calls me to answer for my lack of planning and poor time management skills.

I try to make an effort to frame small moments with the kids, with my love, with this family that I sometimes feel I'm just visiting. I try to keep track of growth milestones, and take notice of the changes my kids endure. I try to stay engaged with my wife as she explores her next stage of life, going to school - making big changes, sometimes falling but mostly flying. She's what keeps me awake in the world. Without her watchful eyes and soft-kiss reminders, I would just float off into the world of dreams and nightmares.

I want no more than to feel like I'm totally engaged in the life I'm living, I want nothing more than to continue to make a difference in my family's life.